Too Good to Help

About 2 months ago now, my endocrinologist recommended I get a continuous glucose monitor (CGM). A CGM continuously tracks your blood sugars and you wear it on your body like an insulin pump. Which is why I resisted it for so many years. One device was enough, thank you. But though my numbers are good, 23 years of self management is wearing on me. Diabetes, esp Type 1, is a permanent part time job. Several people told me a CGM improved their control considerably. It also means a lot less testing (sticking your finger to test a drop of blood- which I do 15-18 times a day).
But the insurance company rejected me. Twice. Their reason? My A1c’s, the number that averages your blood sugar over 3 months, were too good.. In other words if I my control was poor and I had high A1c’s I’d get that CGM.
To be fair, there are lots of reasons for poor control, for wildly fluctuating blood sugars, or chronic serious lows. Those situations need continuous monitoring- but why are A1c’s the criteria? Why should someone who takes stellar care of herself be denied a technology that would make her care taking easier? That would reward her conscientiousness? Burnout is a major issue for people with diabetes, leading to depression and eventually poor self care.
But why worry? As soon as my A1c’s go up an I develop complications, I’ll get my CGM!
Problem solved.

Forever Responsible

And finally one last bit of wisdom from the fox to the little prince. A world of truth in 2 short sentences.

“Men have forgotten this truth,” said the fox. “But you must not forget it. You become responsible forever, for what you have tamed.”

~Antione de Saint Exupery, Le Petit Prince

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[Recipe] Raw Cacao Cherry Brownie

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A great example of something sweet that’s tasty and good for your body-

Originally posted on Naturopathy by Savvas Ioannides N.D.:

An excellent pre-work out snack that will give you lots of energy coming from good sources of carbohydrates, medium chain triglycerides and omega fatty acids. The delicious brownies also contain lots of healthy minerals that we need to replenish when we sweat at the gym. It also contains antioxidants to help heal those muscle fibres and increase your recovery rate.

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What you need:

  • 1 1/2 cups dates, pitted
  • 2 cups walnuts
  • 1/4 cup hemp seeds
  • 2 tablespoons chia seeds
  • 1/2 cup desiccated coconut
  • 1/3 cup raw cacao powder
  • 2 tablespoons melted coconut oil
  • 1/4 teaspoon Celtic salt (*or Himalayan)
  • 1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
  • 1 cup fresh cherries, pitted

What you do:

  1. Place everything in the food processor and blend until combined.
  2. Place in the freezer for 30 minutes.
  3. Remove from freezer and cut into desired shape.
  4. Serve with fresh cherries.

This recipe comes straight from yum. gluten free magazine March 2014 and it is…

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Graduation Words to My Son

Writing about Mr. Rogers and his commencement speech reminded me of the words I spoke to my oldest son at his high school graduation party, when we were sharing memories of him and wishing him well. I’ve re-read those words at various turning points in my, and my son’s, life.

Nick graduated in 2003–I was about 5 years divorced from his dad by then. In my words to him I quoted the line from Saint Exuprey that Mr. Rogers had framed above his desk.

One thing I learned having you and your brother is that you are both inextricably bound to me and yet you are separate. You came with your own little programs.

A graduation is like any other marker in life–it’s all about opportunity and loss. This world, this family, are not what I imagined they’d be when I envisioned your future when you were a baby in my arms. And in that is another truth–you cannot protect your children from suffering–and sometimes, despite all your wishes, you even cause some of it.

It’s been important for me as a parent to remain humble in the face of the young man you are–not imagine that I’ve made you the fine and sensitive person you are, but realize I’ve simply had a hand in guiding you.

I woke up this morning thinking of a favorite line from The Little Prince, “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.”

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If there is anything you can say I’ve given you, I hope it’s a desire to know what is truly in your heart and to act on what your heart tells you. I believe it always tells you what’s right.

I hope I let you know that you don’t have to do great, successful or ambitious things, you only have to try your best to be a good person–a kind, gentle and compassionate man–a mensch–that that is the work of your life, and if you do that you will achieve more good in this world than you can ever imagine.

You have taught me so much–I love you more than you will ever know.

 

What is Essential

Mr. Rogers was a fan of  Saint Exupery. He had a quote from The LIttle Prince framed, and it hung over his desk. A reference to essentialism of a different sort.

Beside my chair in my office is a framed piece of calligraphy with a sentence from Saint Exupery’s book, The Little Prince (Le Petit Prince). It reads: “L’essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.” (“What is essential is invisible to the eye.”) I feel the closer we get to knowing and living the truth of that sentence, the closer we get to wisdom.

What is essential about you that is invisible to the eye? And who are those who have helped you become who you are today?

Anyone who has ever graduated from a university, anyone who has ever been able to sustain good work has had at least one person – and often many – who believed in him or her. We just don’t get to be competent human beings without many different investments from others.

~Mr. Rogers, excerpt from 2001 commencement speech at Marquette University

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Bowing to Our Neighbors

When my sons were small they loved watching Mr. Rogers. I can’t say I loved watching Mr. Rogers, though I was thrilled they did because he was so kind and the show was so calm. But when Mr. Rogers died, I was deeply affected and sad. Since then I have come to love reading things Mr. Rogers said, and always choke up whenever I read the commencement speech he delivered in 2001 at Marquette University. Here are the opening words:

For a long time I wondered why I felt like bowing when people showed their appreciation for the work that I’ve been privileged to do. What I’ve come to understand is that we who bow are probably – whether we know it or not – acknowledging the presence of the eternal: we’re bowing to the eternal in our neighbor. You see, I believe that appreciation is a holy thing, that when we look for what’s best in the person we happen to be with at the moment, we’re doing what God does. So, in loving and appreciating our neighbor, we’re participating in something truly sacred.

~Mr. Rogers

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 The upcoming work week is packed so I will excerpt a few more pieces from this wonderful commencement speech in this season of such speeches.

Violence of Technology

Building on the previous post and how we do violence to ourselves through “well-intentioned” over-commitment, this is a brief consideration of the violent consequences of technological approaches driven solely by expediency and efficiency.

When measuring human success, we use terms borrowed from technology, words and phrases like, outputs, operational objectives and capabilities, hitting benchmarks etc. but treating workers (people!) like cogs in a wheel is so far below the astonishing array of human capabilities. Since the Industrial Revolution, efficiency has become the standard against which we measure success, eschewing creativity, intuition, feelings, nurturing–all those soft, unquantifiable  attributes that mark us as human. Humans do not thrive in soul-numbing, repetitive work unless perhaps money is the only need, but if one works at a minimum wage job (where such jobs are abundant) even that need will not be met.

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However, productive efficiencies will churn out billions of hamburgers, tacos, french fries and processed foods–all of which are slowly killing us. (In 2050, 1 in 3 Americans will have Type 2 diabetes if present trends continue.) Human needs ignored in the drive to make hamburgers. Who thinks this makes sense?

This poignant quote by Thomas Merton articulates not only the consequences of a mindless adherence to measuring success solely by technological standards, but also, how the ever insistent cacophony of technology mirrors our agitated minds. More agitation, less reflection, more violence.

“Technology has its own ethic of expediency and efficiency. What can be done efficiently must be done in the most efficient way—even if what is done happens, for example, to be genocide or the devastation of a country by total war. Even the long-term interests of society, or the basic needs of man himself, are not considered when they get in the way of technology. We waste natural resources, as well as those of undeveloped countries, iron, oil, etc., in order to fill our cities and roads with a congestion of traffic that is in fact largely useless, and is a symptom of the meaningless and futile agitation of our own minds.”

~Thomas Merton, Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander

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